Update

It's been a little over a month since I've been gone from school and I'm already having my doubts. I don't know if it's worth it anymore. I love Caitlin so much, but I'm just feeling so depressed and what she said on the phone made me feel even worse. I wasn't mad or anything, I just didn't get why she had to bring up something like that, a month before she comes to visit me and before I hear from UH if I can study there this semester. I couldn't believe how she just talked about how hard it would be for her to be in a long-distance relationship for such a long time because of reasons pertaining to her, as if it's easier for me to go through this. And we haven't even been apart for that long.

I trust her and all, that she would never cheat on me; and I'm really grateful that she trusts me, too. But for her to tell me how difficult it would to be in a long-distance relationship with me only a month after we've last seen each other--and for results pertaining to her "needs"--just really made me feel sick.